Mystic Melancholy

Caution : this post too has lots of typos and grammatical flaws!!

She had got all that she wanted. A happy family, a posh home, a trendy car, a husband she loved and still loves, a sweet child with the sweetest of smile, an excellent and happening career.
What more could one ask for?
But here we have her asking for more. Maybe even ready to give up some of the above for more of something else. Something which is still ‘Something’ to her.
Every time the sense of emptiness creeps in, she feels the mighty dragon of melancholy slash her soul, mind, smile, thoughts, words, deeds and of late even the people around her.
The thought that she has missed and is missing ‘Something’ never stops nagging her.

Her thoughts started becoming more paradoxical with every attempt to unravel the mystery. The infection of sadness spread across her otherwise active mind. She never again experienced the excitement in her child’s eye which would have otherwise brought glee to its mother nor did she enjoy those memorable moments with her family. Her life started losing its petty charm.
The feigning smile and the laurels of success that adorned her closet camouflaged the mystic melancholy within her.

Luckily the rational voice in her prompted a wise move! A move drastic enough to shake off the giant within her.
She decided to unravel the Myth of the Mystic Melancholy.

Now came the bigger ordeal!! To realize what became the question!

It seemed like the quest of a mortal to realize God...
He knows GOD is omnipresent...And its a matter of a realizing His Presence.!
But to realize what becomes a question again!! Omnipresence has its own problems!!


On one such onslaughts of the mighty wave of melancholy, she decided to give it a mighty blow—whatever it might be.
It was decision taken at that moment but nevertheless a wise decision.
She started drawing in the timeline graph of the “Mystic melancholy Syndrome”.


Blah… blah…Clge projects ..Saying yes to HIM…Tying the marital knot ….
The loan she got ….The crucial project she took over in office …The kid …blah..

She tried to figuring out the common or remotely common factor or factors that would possibly connect those listed.




This factor turned out to be very elusive.

Random thoughts reached nowhere ….
The aspect that linked college project and the kid??
The link between her saying YES to his proposal and the recent project she took over?? The factor common to the vow of marriage that she took up and the loan proposal she jus committed to.... [p]..

For a second she felt the brightness of knowledge dawn on her. The link! The first glimpse of the culprit who for long has held her soul captive!

"The vow of marriage and the loan proposals.....both are commitments she needs to live up to!
The crucial projects and kids, acceptance of his proposal...all spelt commitments, all spelt responsibly!! “


The fear of facing the mighty giant made her numb with all the courage she could summon she tried to strip the culprit and recover the sheen it had held captive so long.

After a long struggle with the details of the past... She framed a conclusion. The conclusion was bitter. Bitter than the bitterest of pills the doctor can prescribe for the simple fact that ‘truth can never always be the way you want it to be!’
And the truth said she lacked conviction... She lacked belief... She hated being held accountable for anyone or any anything....
On the whole ... far within the successful family/career woman lay a very undependable, fragile soul.
With more and more success coming her way, the weight of commitment and belief also rocketed. Now that it has reached its threshold, it has caught her panicky!

A sigh of relief was still far. A task has been found but still undone!
Will she kill the ghost that haunted her soul for long?
Will she really wipe out the myth and make it a thing of past!
Will her ever come out the melancholy?
All these questions have a single answer.
Conviction is the key…! Will she unleash it?? It’s up to her rather her conviction to get things straight and slay the giant of the Mystic Melancholy!